2021.09.20 03:52 BlackSheep5561 One of my worst times drinking
Towards the end of my drinking career, it got especially bad and the unpleasant experiences began to outweigh the enjoyable ones.
I was being sneaky and hiding it as usual, so I was thrilled when my bf went off to work because I didn’t want him to know I’d be drinking. Since I have a poor ability to control myself, I got a 24 oz can at 14% AND a 16 oz at 12%. Clearly too much for a 130 pound lady like me.
It was like noon, and I was supposed to drive that night like maybe around 10 pm. I was planning to have a nice buzz, maybe be somewhat tipsy at the most. Then I’d sober up and be good to drive by the time bf got off work. Nope, that’s not how it played out at ALL.
So, I retreat into the room with my forbidden goods and lock the door behind me. Some hours pass and surprise surprise, I drank too much and blacked out for a bit. My memory is fuzzy but I threw up for sure. I had a passing thought of cleaning up in the shower but didn’t have enough sense to actually get in. I also dropped my phone for what happened to be one too many times and the screen popped off. When I couldn’t get it to turn back on I started crying out of frustration.
When I realized there was only about an hour before my bf was supposed to come back, I cried more because there was no way I’d be sober enough to hide the fact I’d been drinking let alone drive. I dropped onto the bed feeling helpless and cried while I waited for his return.
He of course asked me if I was drunk, which I confirmed as I cried harder out of shame. He was upset, rightfully so, and we didn’t talk much for the rest of the night. I felt like garbage the next day, not hung over, but very regretful of the decision I made.
I also ended up going to the ER. Not for another flare up of pancreatitis, but because I was concerned that I’d caused an intestinal blockage after accidentally swallowing a stone when I was drunk.
Even after all that, it wasn’t enough of a wake up call.
I’m so grateful to be getting help now. There are a lot of experiences including the one I shared above that I’m deeply embarrassed about.
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2021.09.20 03:52 postgygaxian Get Away From My Labradoodle--Trope where a surprise subversion of fundamental assumption undermines audience goodwill
Stories usually try to build up some goodwill so that the audience will be willing to pay attention to the story.
However, some stories are "get away from my labradoodle" stories, and I don't think the trope has that name officially, but it really happens way too often and it needs a recognized name so that we can tell writers to stop doing it.
A recent example is the game 12 minutes, which is NOT about dog molesters. Yahtzee uses "dog molester" so that he is not spoiling the story.
there was still a sense of anticlimax. I won’t spoil the last twist, but for the sake of discussion I’ll replace it with something roughly equivalent: after you connect the last dot, it turns out that all along the main character was a dog molester.https://www.escapistmagazine.com/twelve-minutes-zero-punctuation/
And the only way to escape the time loop is to get the game to go “You know what, let’s just wash our hands of this whole affair and pretend it never happened.” And in reply I go “Well, yes, I suppose that would be for the best. Honestly I’m a little bewildered as to how it happened in the first place. I mean, why would a dog molester marry a human woman? You’d think they’d want to settle down with a nice homely golden retriever. But I still get this nagging sense that I got the unsatisfying bad ending that leaves things unresolved and there must be some good ending you can get somehow where you escape the time loop with your wife and she comes to terms with you wanting to bugger spaniels and you live happily ever after in a house that backs onto the local animal shelter, but that wouldn’t work because we fucking molest dogs. So I’m left trapped in this confused mental limbo between wanting some closure for the character we’ve been identifying with all this time and his long-suffering wife and not wanting to encourage the rape of chihuahuas. But I don’t know if I’d call 12 Minutes good or bad. It’s just… weird. It’s not bland 5 material either, because it at least sparks conversation. Even if that conversation is “get the fuck away from my labradoodle.”
2021.09.20 03:52 KnightOfMarble Who is your favorite Wizard?
My girlfriend and I were watching The Hobbit and I said that Radagast is my favorite of the five wizards, so I figured I'd do a poll to see how many people agree with me.
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2021.09.20 03:52 alobaby Help me find a blouse that looks like this please! (Check comments)
2021.09.20 03:52 darthraxus I am on my annual Halloween rewatch.
I just started my rewatch of the show and one thing that I have always wanted form this show is for Eph to find a cure for this so that some who were infected early could be cured.
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2021.09.20 03:52 MrYee-Haw Hello! I’m helping a friend to find what this font is called so that he can re-create it on his cricket machine.
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2021.09.20 03:52 LongjumpingMiddle742 Photos of my army from the last competitions
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2021.09.20 03:52 JoeyBatters Guys who call other dudes “incel” are the most pathetic simps in existence
Like bro do you realize you are not going to win any woman’s respect or admiration from calling other guys incel or publicly affirming your solidarity with feminism?
NO man who is successful with women uses bullshit deflective terms like that to try to emasculate other dudes in hopes that it makes them look cool or desirable.
Only “incels” in denial, guys who have settled with mediocre chicks and accepted defeat. Make no mistake, they are every bit as much a victim as the rest of us, by calling those of us brave enough to speak up “incels” they are basically grabbing their ankles in front of everyone letting them know they are doubling down on their pathetic submissive acceptance. Guys who refuse to yield to the current nonsense are not incels, they are choosing not to settle. There is a distinct difference, they need to learn it and be aware of how pathetic they look.
The irony here is every one of these delusional fucks is equally impacted by this phenomenon. When you call them out they will tell you how they are “happily married” or in an LTR with the love of their life and need no validation, at which point I ask them to take a look back at their long or short lived stab at dating and remember how that transpired.
Regardless of whether or not their own staggering lack of self awareness clouded their ability to see how and why this was never fruitful until they stumbled into their current situation, I hope they at at least try to remember this every time they open their mouth to “denounce” incels, or any dude for that matter.
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2021.09.20 03:52 DURANGedOSTRICH CellSpit and Wifi calling
I have a cellspot v2 and my phone will still choose wifi over cellular even though it's set to prefer cellular. Very inconvenient to have to manually turn wifi calling on and off.
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2021.09.20 03:52 lightthroughthepines Help
Have a realm with friends, wanted to add a texture pack for a min just to see what it looked like. It didn’t load right. When I try to open the realm it’s stuck on the “this may take a few moments” screen. Same for friend. Force closing app doesn’t fix it. What do I do?
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2021.09.20 03:52 pally_ally Squish the boy I’m talking to picked up for me🥺💞
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2021.09.20 03:52 GangsterPuppy91 Why dont like people like the SPT mod?
Jw, what do some of you have against the mod? Seen video's and posts mentioning some people hate it with a passion... Doesnt seem like bsg likes it either.
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2021.09.20 03:52 sunshinerose32 [LF] Pink roses (plants) [Ft] nmts, bells
2021.09.20 03:52 Ok-Possibility-5066 Denver homelessness machine costs half a billion to operate
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2021.09.20 03:52 pustan75 Huawei P50 Pro - Full Phone Specifications
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2021.09.20 03:52 xMatryks H: Bouquet of Star Ballons Plan W: Offers
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2021.09.20 03:52 Own_Secret1533 Theres fun in this game being F2P, just try to learn the game. 83.4% winrate
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2021.09.20 03:52 Worried-Software-600 Please read this
2021.09.20 03:52 TargetOk4204 KJ at 5.08pm you claimed the police were at your home because of "your reporting" you make the claim once again at 21.37. FYI no one with a working brain believes either of your tweets. Stop making money KJ from the pain and suffering of another family. Tasteless, tacky, classless, trash rag.
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2021.09.20 03:52 DeepLearningGod “Vaccine card please”
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2021.09.20 03:52 Exodus_R Looking for this Black and Red Shirt by Ralph Lauren. The only image of it I can find is on a page for the sweatpants that the model is wearing.
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2021.09.20 03:52 TheMemeArcheologist I've put this off for 3 years
2021.09.20 03:52 dispoable123 LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH
This is coming from a dumper, but something told me someone in here needed to hear this.
Love is not enough. Love is not the determining factor as to why a relationship did not work out. The two most important foundations is respect and honesty. Why? you can love someone and still cheat. you can’t respect someone and cheat. (100% that is) You can love someone but be dishonest toward them. But dishonesty is a big enough deal breaker to leave a relationship.
Stop stressing over if they loved their previous/new partners “more.” I could stay with someone I did not love the same or less a year longer than when I stayed with you because there was no trust. Mind you sometimes it’s not anything you did yourself.
Maybe I don’t trust you because of your beauty. You’d be surprised to find out how insecure some of your partners really are despite never displaying symptoms. Deep down I could feel like you were out of my league. To end my fear of you cheating on me, I leave you without explanation. You’re now wondering what the next person has that you didn’t. When in reality they aren’t better than you. I just feel more secure because less people hit on my partner. (you definitely dodged a bullet with this one)
Or maybe I have a legitimate reason not to trust you. I’m not proud of it, but when I was in high school my senior year I was in love with this boy. He eventually cheated on his girlfriend with me ( I was never trying to seduce him into this, he actually made the move). he ends up breaking up with her, and we start talking. A year later he asked me out. to this day I feel like I would’ve died for him due to how much I loved him. but I still said no. Why? how could I date someone that cheated on a woman he claimed he loved. I didn’t care if it was with me, or if it was “different” because of our connection. The infidelity wasn’t even done towards me, yet it was enough for me to not trust him. I still cry over him and think about him to this day, but yet I still feel like I dodged any bullet I would’ve came across by being in a relationship with him.
Love is strong enough to procrastinate a break up but not prevent it. Love is a feeling, but not a stopping force. Love is great for things like excuses. It can be the reason why you stayed after they cheated 15 times. But ultimately you left because they expected you to stay when they did it the 16th time (lack of respect). Love is not as big of a factor as you think when it comes to leaving. Unless someone explicitly told you this, don’t overthink it. Even then, you have no confirmation this person didn’t say that out of anger.
I could go on day and night. The Point is, what you are crying over most likely doesn’t have as much to do with love as you think. It’s something wrong with compatibility. What is a dealbreaker for you might not be a dealbreaker for them and vice versa. but the last thing you should do is think someone never loved you or lack of it was the reason why you guys are no longer together.
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2021.09.20 03:52 pashernx New England Sunsets
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